I hurt at least two people in the past 21 days

in the dining hall
there are
at least three people have seen me in the nude

my grandparents have been married for over seventy years

I have been alive for 18 of them

years aren't real though, we make those up, we know.
that doesn't mean much
but a hospital bed
driving through the rain
to your husband's new room
putting your own life and the lives of others at risk
to see him as many more times as you can
because how many times you'll see him again is another number you won't know

people. people are real. the people who've seen me
who I've seen
I can touch them
so they are the realest things I know

it always bothered me that I couldn't count all the hairs on my head
whether or not I know
there are a definitive number of hairs on my head
whether or not I know the number
doesn't make the number disappear